This guy.

This guy at my school is perfect. But the fact he flirts with so many girls, and he has a girlfriend.. But he also likes me he said. So why isnt he willing to break up with her for me, that's my main question. 

And he's all over this one girl and I called him out for it today. But whatever, it's not like one girl, let alone me will change his mind. 

School.

Since I'm a junior now I feel like it's more responsibly, of course. But besides that comes another year of drama. It's already started up.. I thought this guy was perfect! But then he forgot to mention the fact he had a girlfriend.. How thoughtful right? I honestly called him out all day, my sister did as well. I mean what did he expect when he led on a twin.. The other one will come after him! Now whenever he sees me he looks down. Which is kind of sad because I think he's so cute and I really wish he didn't have a girl friend but I'm not even going to bother, he flirted with so many girls it's ridiculous.. Anyways, prom is at the end of the year and I'm already worrying about the fact that NO ONE will probably ask me. The troubles. 

Passion Pit

I feel like every blog I make no one reads them. Which I honestly don't care. I'm not trying to display myself and make it look like I care. But I really care about going to this Passion Pit concert this October. I'm dying to go! It's unfair I believe that I can't go to a concert in Birmingham but my mom can go do whatever the hell she wants. Whatever. 

Layovers.

I'm currently in Charlotte NC for a layover. I had a 2 week trip. I went to Chicago, St. Louis and Akron. I love seeing my dad but he's so messy. His 2nd cousins house smells like eggs from the sulfur. And someone just sat next to me... She has a dose of perfume that is too strong and in top of that SHE may be sitting next to me... Fml

My dad's side.

I feel like the family on my dads side do have their problems but in general were close. We don't talk that much crap, but we love to be with each other for holidays! My mom's side is the opposite. They move away from each other on purpose and I honestly don't understand why. Family is your family and you should love to be with them no matter what. 

My birthday.

Today is my birthday it had been one of the worst in awhile. Don't get me wrong I love being in Ohio and seeing my dad. But he didn't plan anything except to drive to St. Louis right now. It's 7:51 and we were supposed to leave at 12 pm. A little off? I believe so. Well anyways I took a cute picture with my older sisters rabbit and that's been the highlight of the day! 

Jack.

Jack is really starting to get on my last nerves. Ever since I got an iPhone, it's been like " Hey Paige let's snapchat, hey Paige let's FaceTime, like no. I don't want too. Leave me alone, dear lord do people not even care anymore? Because I honestly think it's becoming quite ridiculous. He's pissing me off, on 20 different levels. If that's possible, it's happening. 

 

iPhone.

I just got an iPhone!! Usually my mom and I are always fussing about things, but she finally let me get something I actually wanted! I'm so happy right now! 😄

Waiting; gone to waste.

After 3 years of "being" with the same guy, he decided to tell me that he doesn't think its a good idea to wait for each other. The first year we were on and off, the second year we were pretty steady. Then this last year I moved to good ole' Alabama and we decided since we loved each other we would wait for each other. A couple days ago he started to doubt everything. Then two days ago I saw a picture of him kissing another girl. Another twin to be exact. Funny right? So of course I asked him about the picture and he replied with " yeah aren't we cute?" At that point in time I was ferrous, Olivia (MY TWIN) was reading the messages he sent to me out loud because I couldn't get myself to look at them. So he said "everything happens for a reason" BUT he still cares about me, I think that he is the biggest jerk. He told me it was hard for him not to be with any other girls. Any other ways he can make me feel bad? Oh yeah! He knows how to deal with me when I'm angry so after he made it seem like its all my fault he told me "he cares about me and he wants us to stay close because I was his first love." Well I say go screw yourself. 

Fourth of July.

I feel like as I get older these Fourth of July's get worse. When I was little my dad, Christine and Olivia and I and a couple of the neighbors would all shoot off fireworks! The Morris's right across the street would too. Except Mrs.Morris, she was so rude. She called the cops on us! All of the kids ran inside. Anyways, I just feel like things aren't as expected anymore and we don't really make huge plans to go see the fireworks, if we do; we do. Simple as that. Its just not that fun. But I am  glad I got to see the Jackson's yesterday, they're always so much fun to be around! That was the highlight of my night, pretty lame.

Yay for i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-c-e .

Twinning!

I loved working at Callie's Kids. There was a set of twins and I forgot their names but of course Olivia and I got a picture with them! It just made all the sense.

TWINNING IS WINNING. 

Callie's Kids.

( A Callie's Kids 5K shirt)

I honestly LOVE Callie's Kids. Its a great way to get involved. I got involved through my chemistry teacher, it was named after her only daughter Callie. Not only was Callie an amazing person I've heard but she is also loved by the entire town. Even though I never got to meet  her, her mother sure did a good job raising her. I know that because her mother is the most loving, passionate person I know. She is so sweet and I'm so glad I know Leslie Wright. That is probably my favorite reason why I got involved with the program and the camp. 

http://www.callieskids.com/

I Sometimes Wonder...

Do you ever wonder what people think of you? I always do. Its not that it really effects me, but it does make me look at things differently I suppose. When people talk about me I really can only feel sorry for them. I feel as if they have nothing else to do but start harmless drama about topics that aren't even relevant. And then I wonder about people; family, friends, and so on. I honestly do not think its a bad thing to think of things, or think of people. Only when its negative thoughts. That's when you need some help. Just saying! I understand that its not always normal to put other people before you, but I honestly cannot think of a better way to do it. Yes some people think that since I look like the average blonde there isn't much to me. Especially since I live in Alabama. I don't listen to  the average pop you hear on the radio, nor do I smoke weed with people to try to fit in. I am myself and I do care about others. That may be hard to believe that people like that are still here, but believe me. We're here, just not that loud and pronounced about it.

Making a mess.

I made a mess. Why did I bother saying "Hey!" I knew he wouldn't respond. I just thought, why not try. He seems like a nice guy! Well, I inboxed him again and apologized and told him I would stop trying. I feel awful. And I really hope he doesn't think I'm creepy. I just had that slight idea that there was a chance of hope for us. Therefore I tried. Olivia told me to message him! So did my older sister Christine! Ugh. Well, looks like it's too late now. I ended something that wasn't even started, so does that make me one step ahead of him? I guess not since he never responded. The struggle of the teenage life. LOL

Father's Day.

One of the down sides to having divorced parents is their designated holidays. I really miss my dad. And I cried so much last night thinking about his hugs, his smile, memories. And now; today is Father's Day. And I can't even see him. This is pitiful.

Olivia's Charleston Trip.

After complaining about how I don't get to go to Charleston, SC or at least hoping that I can go soon, I find out I get to go over Labor Day. And my twin sister Olivia (Friday June 7th Blog)  she gets to go next week!
Oh how life is fair. Her excuse for going is to help out my Grandfather. But lets be honest. Who can stand Alabama when you moved from Washington DC? ITS HARD. It is what it is, and it looks like I will just deal with it. My mom planned a trip up to Virginia! Just so happened to be the same time as when I am supposed to be with my dad for my birthday. Oh how she despises him.She really thought that would make me want to go with her to Virginia. Yeah, I do miss my friends. But I think seeing my DAD is more important! Whatever. If she wants to act like this then she can. I'm not going to deal with it. I told her I might just go up to Ohio for the entire month of July. She didn't act like it was a big deal, but inside, I knew she doesnt want me to go. Shes at work, Olivia's at work-outs and I'm home. Its impossible to get a job here. Either the reason is "I'm not 21" or "I'm sorry we just aren't hiring right now!" That's just how it is here. Its hard.

Typical Headaches.

I really wish that my headaches would have an end. I feel like every day, or at least almost everyday I have a headache. I was going to go swimming, my headache quickly put an end to that. I was going to go to Devil's Den with Olivia and Grant and Grant's friend and one of Olivia's friend, but Grant had to mow the grass and yeah!  So that leads me to blogging about my boring summer. I hope I can go to Virginia soon so  I can say "Hellloooo!" to all of my old friends. I really miss them. Especially Jack. He's such a sweetie. He's always there for me when I need him to be! He's just a great guy! That's one great thing about meeting friends at church, you know that they'll either be quality people. Or just creepy. Or even better I wish I could go to OHIO (my home state) I REALLY miss those friends. Those friends are my "best friends". The type of friends that I'll invite to my wedding in 10 years type of friends. Well, I'll stop fantasizing about where I hope to go this summer and do something around the house.

Tropical Sorbet.

Went to 32 Degrees with Grant two days ago. He got some odd chocolate yogurt with a chocolate topping. I got tropical sorbet with blueberries and pineapple. It was so good! The thing I love about Grant is the fact that we're totally ourselves around each other. Oh and I love his sister Heather. Heather and I were originally  friends before Grant and I became friends, but still we're pretty close. Well at least I think we are. I guess Saturday counted as a date since he payed for my yogurt..? Well. Whatever. It was what it was, and whatever you want to call it I'm just glad it happened. http://www.32yogurt.com/

The Casual Sunday.

With something as simple as tucking in your shirt it can go from casual to formal!

Simply un-tucking your shirt shows that it can become much more casual!

  

This is the necklace I am wearing in the above picture. I love how simple it is. I got it from http://magnoliasgiftshop.com/

The One and Only, Olivia Harles.

Spending a day with the sister is always the easiest, possibly the most fun way to have a good summer. 

Gotta' love twins.

(Olivia holding me)

Honestly.

 
     Can't one just be tired? Because its only 10:59 am and I'm exhausted. I think I try to hard for you. I put myself out there and now I feel like it may be to late to stop. If only you understood who I am, my morals, stuff like that. I know that sounds so generic. But seriously. I'm feeling like "That girl". The one who puts themselves out there to get you to notice me. Now realizing I feel like a fool. TOO LATE! What is "trying to hard?" Well  Google says:

Web definitions A person usually of little talent who tries hard, especially through imitation, to succeed, usually to gain fame or popularity. Thank you Google.          I feel as if I have someone I don't want. I've known you for over a year now and it hasnt gotten us anywhere. So why does he bother to continue. But my mother seems to believe he is just a "gentleman." Lucky her she only has to deal with him at the family dinners. I feel to "comfortable" with him. As if nothing will ever change. So why do I continue to let myself deal with him everyday?